New Beginning

Its been awhile.yeah.why suddenly? actually i want to make a new blog cus i feel like writing.tapi sangat la malas to open a new blog.so i decided to use my old blog.

its been a year since i started working after i graduated.work? well, its yeah kinda of ok but most of the time its sucks.cus i dont haf passion for it.most of the time i feel like i was forced to do the all those work.saya mempunyai kepala yang keras seperti batu.one of my fren once said that.true.i cant deny it.i dont listen to people much.i do things that i want to do and nobody can really stop me.im trying to fix that.betul.*pingsan

life? life is ok i guess.i think im trying to learn and discover about myself right now.im trying to be better for everyone and yeah.for myself cus ive been such a jerk all this while.apabila umur sedang meningkat, i wish i ll be somenone wiser and somenone who can count on.its a confusing stage cus sometimes u think u r ok ,then esoknya kaboshhhhh! u r not actually ok but u r trying to act like u r ok.that sucks big time.sometimes u think u can handle that, but turned out to be such a mess.honestly i think other than being able to spend our own money ion thing that we like, being an adult is not that fun after all.Teringat masa kat hostel, dalam dorm, when all of us were talking about being an adult.Everyone pun x sabar melepasi umur 21 tahun.kata kami banyak yang boley dibuat.the world is ours.blablablbalba.well, its not like what we tot.darn.should cherish our school time more.yang x sabar nak kuar 2 pasaipa.haha

But hey.thats life.u cant expect everything to be ok kan? =)

Relationship? yeah.im single now.and i dont plan to be in a relationship not until june.after that baru fikir if im ok to be in a relationship.like i said before,right now im trying to learn about myself.saya perlu stabil sebelum boleh menjaga anak dara orang.haha.what past is past.every single things that happened haf a reason to it.if  its ok make it a good memories if its bad make it as an experience.dont ever regret things that uve done.its life.face it.deal with it.u ll be ok.And yeah.dont make assumptions about people’s relationship if u dont know the truth.thats bad.

=)

Yes.all this while is about fulfilling my needs.only.great.

For Fun

this is what im doing semasa tengah mencari keje.haha.mari lah beramai2 =P

http://youthsays.com/go/7l4

discombobulated

i spent the whole night reading her blog and

i slept on the right side of the bed again last night.

and i just hope everything is gonna be ok soon.soon

Confused

i want my life back but i dont know how to get it back.

i dont know wheather all of this is working or not but i dont think im being myself anymore.

sometimes im there but  its just like a routine to me and nothing more than that.

its like my body is there but my mind is somewhere else

im confused and i bet she is too.

gooooshhhh.this feelings.the same old feelings.demm.

i cant

saya sangat mengidamkan chicken chop.ye chicken shop di steven.saya mau tetapi tidak boleh.

i want chicken chop but i cant

i want to go lepak2 and watch movies but i cant

i want to go out from my place but i cant

i want to go vacation but i cant

i want to try to go on a fishing trip but i cant <– owhh ini sangat mau

i want to hangout with my friend but i cant

i want to do everything cus i haf all the time in the world,

but sadly…

i dont have the money..pathetic.pathetic.

Waking up at the right side of the bed

hey2 =)

aiyak.the last 3 or 2 entries asyik copy paste lagu saja.=) nampak sangat malas nak nulis.hahaha

i’ve finished my 1 and only exam paper.yay! thou still ade submission for thesis and design,still, saya rasa gumbira.

I only realized this last night.u see, saya gune queen-size bed dekat rumah saya kat shah alam nin.this is the first time saya gune queen sized bed.Dulu gune single bed saja, and i just moved in to the house.Jadi agaknya sebab suda used to single bed, selalunya saya akan tidur at the left side of the bed, saya x slalunya gune sume space atas katil tue.And tempat saya tue tetap, even if cik usyuk comes, she ll sleep at the right side of the bed.sebab saya mcm suka space sebelah kiri.

And u know what, baru saya perasan, masa bila saya gune the right side of the bed.It is when cik usyuk is not there and when i miss her.Saya x perasan pun till last night.I was like, why am i at this side of the bed? macam rasa sangat pelik,but still i want to baring there.Baring2 sambil rasa pelik, gerak2 sana sini trying to find the right spot.Then suddenly bile suda jumpa, cik usyuk’s face suddely popped out from my mind.Masa tue la baru perasan nape selama ni kadang2 saya selalu rasa nak tidor at the right side of my bed.Its because of her.Pastue saya seyum sorang2 saja.=)

and talking bout my room.skrg saya suda anak buah.=) my sister’s son.u see, my sister’s room is downstairs.so she seldom come upstairs with her son tue.So ader 1 day ,she decided to buat ‘lawatan tapak’.thats what she called it.haha.Pastue right when her son entered my room,mata dia dah gerak kiri kanan, macam there r a lot of things to see.Mule2 kitaorg xkesah la,cus baru masuk, so everthing s new la kan.Budak ni plak memang banyak ngomel, tapi bila kene agah la kan.So, masa tue kitaog xde la pun main dengan dia,tiba2 dia ngomel gelak2 tapi pandang sebelah kiri, padahal kitaorg kat sebelah kanan dia.haha.Ley agak x? hahaha.then everytime dia masuk bilik saya, kitaorg x payah pun entertain dia sangat cus kakak saya kata “xpe,banyak ‘kawan2′ angah nak main dengan dia”.wahahhahaha.Jahat kan kakak saya? ye lar nak deny pun memang ade kan benda tue, but it s kind of scary jugak la bila pikir time sensorang itu.Masalahnya from the way he looks,memang mcm bersepah2 je ‘kawan2′ saya tue.kiri kanan x kira la.Pastue kakak saya kata ” xpe,kawan2 angah nih jenis yang baik la tue,kalau x,xkan dia gelak”.hahaha.demm.

=) Sekarang im finding teammates for futsal.Sekarang suda determine betul2 nak buat team.Rasanya macam dah de 4 people like that,so peeps around shah alam or klang, kalau mau join jom lar.According to my friend coach dah ade, cume nak lengkapkan team.Practice kat the roof meru.come! come!

i totally love this song

Melee
Built To Last lyrics

I’ve looked for love in stranger places,
But never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I’ve been holding back,
And now there’s nothing I can’t do.

‘Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
But most of all it’s built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn’t we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where you are.
You’re in my heart now.
And there’s no escaping it for you.

‘Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
But most of all it’s built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

‘Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
But most of all it’s built to last.

‘Cause you are the sun in my universe,
Considered the best when we’ve felt the worst
And most of all it’s built to last.

everytime i play this song i ll smile widely thinking bout cik usyuk.tis song is jus so sweet and lovely.

Note to self-From first to last

Two roads
Split off from here,
And my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier
Between who I am, and who I want to be.

I wanted to be that breath of fresh air,
When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth,
Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I’m ready to disappear,
Vacation seems far, seems far from here.

I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I don’t know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I’m sick of this scene,
I need to break the routine.

I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I don’t know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I’m sick of this scene,
I need to break the routine.

Two roads
Split off from here,
And my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.

Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close, and yet I am so far.
Which part of me is lost?
I feel so close, and yet I am so…far!

I guess thats exactly what im feeling now.

feeling down

i dunno but i feel so down and weak this pas few months.Macam my energy and spirit had been sucked out and i dunno why.And i dont seems to find anyone that could hear and share my feelings.i need to get rid all the things tat haf been bothering my mind and feelings ini but i cudnt and i am suffocating.and im tired suda.

Jadi sy menulis disini.sekian