Mood swing

hey2.Emm.Dari segi emosional dan mental saya rasa sangat tidak stabil beberapa minggu ini.Everything i did was a failure to me n everyone.eventhou ive tried hard to make it ok, everything turns out to be a disaster.betul2 menguji kesabaran saya.Giving up? Itu saya sudah rasa banyak kali suda, cus sometimes i think it was a waste of time trying so damn hard but the outcome masih teruk juga.Tapi kerana masih ada pertimbangan dan rationaliti, im still here trying.Mungkin kerana azam saya tinggi tahun ini and i cant give up kerana ini baru awal tahun.But maybe i shud lower down my expectation.Sape setuju?

Saya selalu beritahu cik busyuk, awak harus ati kering pada masa dan tempat yang sepatutnya.Ignore benda2 yang x mberi ape2 keuntungan kepada dia.I wish i can do what i said to her.Ati kering.Damn, seriously, semua orang yang kenal saya kata saya ati kering, relaks je kale ada problem, but to be honest, its jus a cover-up.They dont know how scared i am dan betapa x stabilnye saya.I may look cool outside, tapi dalam minda semua pun fikir.Everything.From the little2 things.I cant control it.Mungkin kerana usia semakin meningkat, semua pun perlu mula berfikir and the fact that my mom is expecting something good and high from me make me so afraid of letting her down.She tot im the one who can help my family in the future since my older sister pun macam cukup2 jer for her family.Shes thinking of retiring after i finished my degree.Fikir tentang itu pun dah sangat takowt.I wan to give everything i can but i m not sure i can do that.Maybe not as much as she think i can.

But i know i haf to be strong for everybody.For her jgk, but i know shes much more stronger than i am.Betul, nampak jer lembowt, tapi saya boley merasakan kekuatannya.Hehehe.So dun worry kiddo, i know u ll do just fine.=)

No one- Alicia Keys 

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don’t worry ‘cuz
Everything’s going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything’s going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain
You and me together

Through the days and nights
I don’t worry ‘cuz
Everything’s going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything’s going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So til the end of time I’m telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for yo

Hmm, betul kata org, Proton cars agak xtahan, selalu je ada masalah.Ive been using Perodua car for like 3 years, takde masalah sangat pun,dah la kereta tue since 1997, kuat jer.Ni baru gune keta proton 2 bulan, dah macam2,brake suda berbunyi, dashboard pun suda bunyi.abis la saya mau service n maintain menda2 ni saja sudah banyak mau dikeluarkan

Bali

Dang.I’m supposed to find information about precedent study for my presentation.Unfortunately, xde building yang suitable.~_~

I just got my site for my project this sem and its in Bali.Dekat Ubud.Its a paddy rice field.Macam ini

And im supposed to design an exclusive apartment that cant be higher than a coconut tree on the slopes.Because the regulations there, building cant be higher than a coconut tree.Ini paling tough pernah saya dapat.I ll be cracking my mind for this, but interesting.And im going to Bali for a week, after Chinese New for site analysis.Its gona be fun and interesting.Looking forward for this.Tapi kalau pegi bersama cik usyuk boley honeymoon trus.^_^ Tapi malangnya dia tidak sama class dengan dia.Oleh sebab itu saya mesti membeli gifts yang banyak kepadanya.hehherher.Kan?

Berusahalah! memberi motivation kepada diri sendiri  -_-

Escape

Hey2

Been so bz lately with assignment n stuff and sangat xde masa nak buat ape2.Even spending time with cik usyuk.Sian dia.Walaupun kiataorg same bilik tapi macam sangat jauh cus im not in the same studio with her, so if saya ader,dia xder.This past week kene stay up till 5 a.m kat studio, balik2 je tengok dia dah tidur.Jadi agaknya dia rasa sangat terabai, dia selalu kata ” Saya x stabil la” Faham lar saya dia mau sedikit attention drpd saya.=) Jadi pas submission je menebus balik masa saya bersama dia.Dah stabil katanya =).Nway the project process was so like tiring and stuff.Itu yang susah kalo dah di aim oleh lecturer.Sangat susah mau impress dia balik.Hey but im thankful pas balik berpenat lelah je, looking at her face je make me fresh again.She will be there with smiles on her face, calming and taking care of me.=)

Hmm.actually i never tot that i m the type yang macam sangat kisah akan kerja.Really.I tot i was the cool and ‘dek’ type yang agak x kesah if the work was done properly ke x.Rupanya i turned out to be kind of a workaholic.I realized it when im with her.Sebab itu dia selalu x stabil when i haf a lot of work.Cus i tend to so concentrate on it that i really dont want any distruption.Pathetic.I tot i was cool but im not.Hahaha.She turned out to be the one yang relaks dan cool sampai kadang2 saya risau and i haf to kerahkan dia.Herher.Weird.

Awful

Cedey la ini macam.

nasib baik ada neutralizer saya.

Happy new Year =)