Mood swing

hey2.Emm.Dari segi emosional dan mental saya rasa sangat tidak stabil beberapa minggu ini.Everything i did was a failure to me n everyone.eventhou ive tried hard to make it ok, everything turns out to be a disaster.betul2 menguji kesabaran saya.Giving up? Itu saya sudah rasa banyak kali suda, cus sometimes i think it was a waste of time trying so damn hard but the outcome masih teruk juga.Tapi kerana masih ada pertimbangan dan rationaliti, im still here trying.Mungkin kerana azam saya tinggi tahun ini and i cant give up kerana ini baru awal tahun.But maybe i shud lower down my expectation.Sape setuju?

Saya selalu beritahu cik busyuk, awak harus ati kering pada masa dan tempat yang sepatutnya.Ignore benda2 yang x mberi ape2 keuntungan kepada dia.I wish i can do what i said to her.Ati kering.Damn, seriously, semua orang yang kenal saya kata saya ati kering, relaks je kale ada problem, but to be honest, its jus a cover-up.They dont know how scared i am dan betapa x stabilnye saya.I may look cool outside, tapi dalam minda semua pun fikir.Everything.From the little2 things.I cant control it.Mungkin kerana usia semakin meningkat, semua pun perlu mula berfikir and the fact that my mom is expecting something good and high from me make me so afraid of letting her down.She tot im the one who can help my family in the future since my older sister pun macam cukup2 jer for her family.Shes thinking of retiring after i finished my degree.Fikir tentang itu pun dah sangat takowt.I wan to give everything i can but i m not sure i can do that.Maybe not as much as she think i can.

But i know i haf to be strong for everybody.For her jgk, but i know shes much more stronger than i am.Betul, nampak jer lembowt, tapi saya boley merasakan kekuatannya.Hehehe.So dun worry kiddo, i know u ll do just fine.=)

No one- Alicia Keys 

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don’t worry ‘cuz
Everything’s going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything’s going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain
You and me together

Through the days and nights
I don’t worry ‘cuz
Everything’s going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything’s going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So til the end of time I’m telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for yo

Hmm, betul kata org, Proton cars agak xtahan, selalu je ada masalah.Ive been using Perodua car for like 3 years, takde masalah sangat pun,dah la kereta tue since 1997, kuat jer.Ni baru gune keta proton 2 bulan, dah macam2,brake suda berbunyi, dashboard pun suda bunyi.abis la saya mau service n maintain menda2 ni saja sudah banyak mau dikeluarkan

Bali

Dang.I’m supposed to find information about precedent study for my presentation.Unfortunately, xde building yang suitable.~_~

I just got my site for my project this sem and its in Bali.Dekat Ubud.Its a paddy rice field.Macam ini

And im supposed to design an exclusive apartment that cant be higher than a coconut tree on the slopes.Because the regulations there, building cant be higher than a coconut tree.Ini paling tough pernah saya dapat.I ll be cracking my mind for this, but interesting.And im going to Bali for a week, after Chinese New for site analysis.Its gona be fun and interesting.Looking forward for this.Tapi kalau pegi bersama cik usyuk boley honeymoon trus.^_^ Tapi malangnya dia tidak sama class dengan dia.Oleh sebab itu saya mesti membeli gifts yang banyak kepadanya.hehherher.Kan?

Berusahalah! memberi motivation kepada diri sendiri  -_-

Aiyo

Last week i accidently scratched someone car semasa parking kereta.This is the first accident setelah beberapa tahun membawa keter and guess what masa itu her father was in the car.Aiyo.Itu la dia darah gemuruh namanya.Trying so hard to control and impress him , inilah padahnya.Harhar.Its not that bad lar cus that person car punya paint yang terkeluar banyak, mine macam sikit jer.But heartache jugaklar sebab keter saya langgar itu memang suda buruk,harhar,so i wouldn’t make much different to him or her.Harhar.Kejam.Kepada cik/puan/tuan/tan sri/toh puan  minta maap yer, saya sangat gementar kerana bapanya berada di dalam kereta.herherehr

Differences

Aiyak.mentang2 cuti sem tiap2 hari pun memblog.Herher.Layan.

It’s going to be December soon.Cepat je masa berlalu.Kan? Then suddenly I remember, masuk bulan depan it’s gonna be our second year anniversary.X sedar pun cus when im with her, I feel like time flies so fast.I dunno where would it lead us but as long as we are together I ll be ok.=)

Kalau mau tau cik biawak and I, we totally have different taste.And I mean huge differences.To the extend that boleh tahu dia suka atau tak.Because if I like that style, she woudn’t.So if she likes it, I woudn’t.Seriously, tapi ada la jugak some yang saya dan dia suka sama2, but ley kira dengan jari la.The differences is like everything la including food,clothes,style and everything else lar.

Kalau dari segi food is like totally different.She LIKES fast-food so very much.so VERY much.I never met someone that is so happy if dapat fast-food.Herher.She likes fried food.Everything that is fried cus she just loves the crunchiness of the food.Kalau dapat pisang goreng yang banyak kerak itu, muka dia menjadi tersangatlah bahagia.Hoho.In my case plak, I like soupy and non-fried food.Cik biawak selalu kata saya suke makanan orang sakit.Dia kata kalau saya ni letak kat hospital mesti bahagia sebab banyak makanan orang sakit.Bley x? =p.Tapi betul, I prefer that kind of food.Kaler makan Kentucky, cik biawak akan abiskan kerak2 ayam itu, isi2 bawah nanti kasik saya makan.Kalau telur masin dia suke yang putih, yang kuning telur tue kasik saya sbb saya ske yang itu.But its like fun cus I got to finished her food yang dia x makan and she got to finished my food yang saya x makan.Oh ye, I hate vegetables, dia la tukang makan sayur saya.

Style part plak, she likes something yang macam classical macam mid-evil itu.X kesah la furniture ke, barang ke.She just loved that kind of style.Her shoes, her clothes.Saya plak I like something modern and simple.Our sense is like totally different.Pernah itu hari, browsed one furniture magazine, she said she want this type of furniture, sambil tunjuk furniture like dalam castle itu.If neone yang slalu lalu jln Maarof tue akan perasan satu kedai classic furniture itu.Herher.Saya buat muke terkejut dan kaget “Haa?”.Pastue saya tunjuk plak furniture that I wud like,this so modern and cool design yang ala2 retro skit kat dia.Dia plak buat muka.She said it looks like so plastic and fake.=(.Herher.So we decided to have both styles in our house nanti.Ngeee..

But the differences that makes us wanting to learn more about each other.Kalau semua pun same macam xde thrill nak pilih benda untuk dia,knowing that she wud like it,plus we can learn to except and explore about our partner.Susah taw saya mau beli barang untuk dia.Kene selidik dulu, tanya ni tanya tue in order to know what she really likes tanpa mengantoikan diri.Herher..

Joy

 Yuhuuu.herher.Im blogging from usyuk’s house ni.Shes sleeping cus shes tired.Ini semua adalah angkara saya.Masa raya ke-4 itu ari saya dapat food poisoning.Kebetulan hari tue dah plan to stay one night at her house.Ulang alik toilet sampai lembik.vomiting and all.I dont usually get sick.So when i got sick, it feels weird and i fell like so weak.Nasb baik ada penyelamat dunia.Ultraman Dyna!.Eh! cik usyuk! Herher <– Ini gelak terbaru saya.

I feel so mush better now.Bertungkus lumus cik menjaga saya dari pagi sehingga malam tidak henti2 <– im exaggerating.Herher.Sungguh bahagia sakit di rumah cik usyuk.Mak mertua saya memasakkan bubur yang lazat untuk saya.^_^.Hey and one more. I tot im too old to dapat duit raya, but guess what, her mom gave me duit raya and the amount is as the same as apa yang dia dapat.Apakah maksudnya itu? JEng2.Hehehe.Go figure it out urself.-_^

Im going back to college tomorrow.Ader exam.Herher.Wish me luck ey.

* Cikk usyuk!! Bangun dah maghrib!

* Cik di Luar sana, bersawang lagi la blog saya ini.Herher

Hypnotize

Its kinda late too wish but raya kan sebolan.So, here goes Selamat Hari Raya.Maaf Zahir Batin.=)

Sangat lama x blog.Dont really haf time to online.Jadi bagaimanakah raya anda semua? Silonotkah? =P

Raya was ok.Saya menunggu rendang dan kek coklat cik usyuk.huahua.Saya memang suke menyuruh dia memasak makanan untuk saya.Sungguh seronok memakan makanan yang dimasak olehnya.Ngee

Hmm.mau cerita ape ini hari.Oh yee.Saya tau.=)

To be honest, i never take relationship seriously before this.Even usyuk dont really know bout this.I just want to haf fun and enjoy their company.I dont play around with them, i just dont take relationships seriously.I remember my exs talking bout our future and stuff but i always tend to ignore them or just say to them that everything is just to soon to plan or dream.Before this i never tot of staying or living with my exs.Its just something i dont do back then.Saya dulu adalah seorang yang agak heartless.Thats what some of my friend yang close to me says.I dont show much emotion back then.Im not trying to be macho or what but seriously im not that type dulu.

But everything changes when im with her.I started to show a lot more emotion and stuff.I talk and share more problems with her then anyone else i know before and the most important thing, she is the one that i take serious for the first time.Seriously.I think serious stuff about her.Shes just so different that make me think a lot about her.Saya perasan ini semasa raya itu hari.I miss her so damn much that it hurts.Dulu i never let all this lovey dovey stuff get in my way.Saya dulu selalu kene marah sebab macam xde perasaan and i dont easily says i miss u to my exs.I wonder why.But now,i never miss her like i miss anyone before.I never care her like i care bout someone before.Its scary,really. *_*.Awak dah hypnotize saya ye? ye?

But seriouly ive been hypnotized by u biawak.Scary taw.Harhar

*Sangat bosan xde awak la biawak

Unpredictable

Selalu tak dipaksa menjawab soalan2 cepumas yang diajukan oleh kanak-kanak? Hoho.Saya selalu juga menjadi mangsa oleh kanak-kanak yang sangat eager untuk belajar ini.Paling lama saya disiasat dengan soalan2 cepumas adalah semasa merdeka itu hari.I was visiting my aunt’s house that evening.She was babysitting her grandchildren at that time.Sorang 7 tahun and the other one is like a year and a half i think.So we were playing sambil menonton cerita Afi Dan Abah.Suddenly the 7 years old girl ask me;

Girl: Kak, apsal kak macam laki ye?

Me: Ha.manade.Macam perempuan la.

Girl: Perempuan manade pakai seluar,baju macam ni.Perempuan rambut panjang macam kakak ni (she was pointing at my sister)

Me: Ada je la.

Dia mengangguk lalu pergi bermain-main.Beberapa minit kemudian..

Girl:Kalau kak macam laki boleh la main kahwin2 dengan shasha(her name)? Jom kita main kahwin2.

Me:Ha? ( I was like thinking hard macam mana mau jawab itu soalan.X sempat nak jawab dia sudah memulakan lakonannya)

Girl: Sayang..sayang tengok anak kita tue (sambil menunjuk ke arah adiknya)

Me: Eh.dah ada anak plak?

Girl: Ye lar.Cepat sikit

Me: (Layankan aje) Nape dia tersengguk2 tue? (adiknya macam tengah buat headbanging sebab dengar theme song Afi dan Abah itu)

Girl: Alar sayang..sebab anak kita tue laki jadi dia rock la.

Me: Perempuan x boley rock ke?

Girl: Mana boley la.Tapi kalau macam kak boley la.

Hoho.Boley pulak ye.Adey.children nowadays are unpredictable and sometimes menakutkan.They do learn things faster sekarang.Tapi ada satu insiden yang terjadi dekat kolej memang xboleh dilupakan.

I was walking with some of my friend at that time.We were walking back to kolej after class masa tue.It was like 5.00 p.m.Masa tue like peak hours lar budak2 balik kolej.So i was like walking dengan tenangnya.Suddenly thers this bunch of kids tengah main basikal.Jadi saya meng’ignore’ saje la.Tetapi tiba2 saya dengar.

‘Ganasnya kakak tue jalan!’

Budak itu menjerit sambil menunjuk ke arah saya.Adesss.Tau tak suara budak tue bley didengar dari blok A ke Z?? .Semua awek2 pun menjeling2 ke arah saya.Memang saya rasa mau sekeh2 saja budak itu.Nasib baik dia naik basikal kalau x memang lebam itu budak.

Kelakar

Hohoho.Kepada sesiapa yang telah membaca blog budak usyuk saya, i admit it was a stupid cover-line! BLAJA MENARI?? Aiyo.How can i came out with that kind of cover-line.Sangat dope dan xde apa lagi perkataan yang boley saya gambarkan.It just came out spontaneously! Aiyo.aiyo dan aiyo! harhar.Honestly i cant stop laughing everytime i think bout it.Gelak yang sgt kuat dan tidak boley di cover.

______________________________________________________

On the way driving back home just now, i saw this rapid KL bus and suddenly saya teringat bus accident that killed 20 people dekat Bukit Gantang last week.I dunno but i just seems to think that there are rationale about putting seat belts dalam bus express.Dun all of u agree? Sebab banyak cause of the death is tersepit dan tercampak keluar bus.Tak boley ye letak seat belts? Macam kelakar x? Macam x kelakar sangat.Ini adalah kerana saya mempunyai satu i dunno what should i call this,phobia kot tapi mcm bukan.Saya x boley tidur dalam kenderaan yang bergerak.Memang susah la nak tidur.Kalau saya berjaya tidur itu adalah kerana saya betul2 kepenatan je.Ada satu kali, masa saya betul2 penat i asked usyuk to drive.I slept all the way from Kl to Ipoh cus i was totally exhausted.Sekali itu saja sebab usyuk dont like to drive.Kena paksa sikit dia drive,kalau lama xdrive nanti takot nak drive.

Berbalik kepada cerita saya xboleh tidur dalam kenderaan bergerak memang kadang2 menyusahkan saya.Terutamanya ketika menaiki kenderaan awam seperti bus express.Aiyo.Macam saya kalau mahu balik kampung saya naik bus.Sebab kalau naik kereta duit pun abis.Hehehe.Jadi sepanjang perjalanan saya akan terjaga.Saya juga kene tengok org tue drive bus mcm mana.Kalau dia emergency break je saya akan terjaga.

Dont laugh at me but i haf this one bad habit ketika saya menaiki bus ekpress.Contohnya jika saya dapat seat no 5, saya akan memikirkan cara untuk escape kalau ada apa2 berlaku.Saya akan locate emergency door bus tersebut.Serius.Pecahkan tingkap macam mana kalau bas terbalik belah lagi satu.Kalau bus terbalik belah saya, saya dah fikir cara2 nak panjat the other side.Pathetic kan? Tapi memang kalau masuk2 je bus macam2 tactic saya fikir.Saya pun kurang pasti kenapa.Tapi saya xde plak fobia naik bus.Xde plak macam takot2 atau nak elakkan diri.Its jus me i guess.Hoho.Tapi bubuh seat belt dalam bus xboley ye? Hmmmm.. ^_^

I dont even know

I miss being rebellious and do whatever i want without people telling me Don’t or No.

The Circle

Hoho.i dun think i will haf much time to blog dah after this.Cus i ll be continuing my study starting next week.Well yeah one of the other reason is i haf to stay in the stupid old hostel they provided.Im not looking forward to this because this time i ll be switching campus and yeah i ll be the new person.I hate being new because i have to adjust things over again.Hohoho.But hey let take things positively.Im sure its not gonna be that bad.*ayat sedapkan hati

Oh ye.Lets see what i achieved based on my last post.hoho.

General stuff:

Belajar Skecth Up dan 3DMax dan sewaktu dengannya.- Tak jumpa tok guru nak ajar 3DMax

Buat plan and renovation on our new house bagi mengelakkan mak sy merungut2 takot xsiap.ini penting.-Sadly baru siap plan sebab terlalu leka bergumbira.hoho

Tidak terlalu memalaskan diri serta melakukan aktiviti2 yg membesarkan badan.-Haha.ini x bley dielakkan la walau sebanyak mana pun cuba dielakkan.Ea.but i did lost some Kgs.hehe

Menambah ilmu pengetahuan sebelum masuk belajar.-Ilmu batin.harharhar

Mahu bersukan & mengurangkan berat badan-Hoho.Believe it or not ini berjaya dikurangkan

Mahu betulkan aircon kete yg suda tidak sejuk.oh ye.brek juga.gimana ney.-Ini macam paling penting.Nape ea x terlaksana?

Menengok semua cerita di wayang dan tv yg termiss.hoho-Ini memang keje kami berdua ketika cuti

Loved ones:

Spend quality times wit my mother and my lil’ sister.Oh ye.ajar dia buat pekse.hoho-Sudah.^_^

Spend quality times bersama budak saya memandangkan suda lama tidak keluar tanpa memikirkan report dan dissert.-Time will never be enough for me wen im wit her.But i really enjoy being around her masa cuti ni.^_^

Hohoho.Mari mengerah otak kembali.~~

*Budak.saya sangat gembira bersama kamu