Escape

Hey2

Been so bz lately with assignment n stuff and sangat xde masa nak buat ape2.Even spending time with cik usyuk.Sian dia.Walaupun kiataorg same bilik tapi macam sangat jauh cus im not in the same studio with her, so if saya ader,dia xder.This past week kene stay up till 5 a.m kat studio, balik2 je tengok dia dah tidur.Jadi agaknya dia rasa sangat terabai, dia selalu kata ” Saya x stabil la” Faham lar saya dia mau sedikit attention drpd saya.=) Jadi pas submission je menebus balik masa saya bersama dia.Dah stabil katanya =).Nway the project process was so like tiring and stuff.Itu yang susah kalo dah di aim oleh lecturer.Sangat susah mau impress dia balik.Hey but im thankful pas balik berpenat lelah je, looking at her face je make me fresh again.She will be there with smiles on her face, calming and taking care of me.=)

Hmm.actually i never tot that i m the type yang macam sangat kisah akan kerja.Really.I tot i was the cool and ‘dek’ type yang agak x kesah if the work was done properly ke x.Rupanya i turned out to be kind of a workaholic.I realized it when im with her.Sebab itu dia selalu x stabil when i haf a lot of work.Cus i tend to so concentrate on it that i really dont want any distruption.Pathetic.I tot i was cool but im not.Hahaha.She turned out to be the one yang relaks dan cool sampai kadang2 saya risau and i haf to kerahkan dia.Herher.Weird.

Awful

Cedey la ini macam.

nasib baik ada neutralizer saya.

Happy new Year =)

Shleep

Saya mempunyai posisi tidur yang buruk.Seriously.Saya suke sangat tidur dengan mengangkangkan kaki saya dengan lebar.Tidur terkangkang la tue maksudnya.I was trying hard to make the sentence bunyi sedap skit.Hahaha.Buruk sangat.Cik usyuk plak kata saya tidur ganas.Gerak sini gerak sana.Jadi memang terseksa la dia kalo saya tidur agaknya and i snores a lil.A lil only la.haha.That is why if i sleep at her house, de one tilam kat tepi katil.Its for me sebab saya memerlukan ruang yang lebey besar untuk tidur bagi mengekalkan posisi kegemaran saya.

Satu lagi masalah saya, haba di dalam badan saya ni melebihi haba manusia biasa.Betul.My friend always says that they feel hot when im around them.They can feel haba coming out frm my body.My brother pun macam tue.So it runs in the family.Jadi ia bukan satu penyakit.haha.So i told usyuk, we need to haf a king size bed when we live together nanti. Its a must! hehe.

Saya perasan de satu habit cik usyuk saya ni, she likes to kacau me when im sleeping.Saya ini susah nak bangun sikit.Jadi penah sekali tue, dia letakkan jari dia dekat idung saya.Bley x? Dia block udara masuk.haha.terkejut saya masa tue.She likes to play wit my ears and eyes to wake me up.Baru lar saya perasan sebab dia mau saya bangun.If she hugs and cuddle me melebihi bilangan yang sepatutnya itu maksudnya dia mau saya bangun la tue.^_^

Mau mau

mau rendang sama ketupat itu budak yang masak.baru kenyang! hehehe.Ley x awak?

awak..?

awakk..??

awakkkkkkkk!!??

suruh masak suda lari.:p

Kawaii ^_^

Saya perasan blog saya ini kekurangan gambar.So,today saya akan membuat post versi bergambar.Hoho.Bley plak eh.

Saya mau pegi Jepun.It always haf been my dream place because i just think that its a fun city with lots of weird cute fashion there.They haf cool and unique sense of fashion.Oh yes and im a gadget freak so its a place to be.Enjoy.

Shibuya,Japan

This is a wig store.^_^

They called this the Loveless Monster.Hoho

I wonder if this works.

 

 

 

 

Sekian.Hehehe

Fishy

Last week i went with usyuk to Cineleisure to watch movie.When we arrived there was this anime festival kinda thing.There were booth everywhere pasal comics,games and everything lar.So as we were browsing tiba2 ada this booth yang macam comel.The fisrt thing that came out from her is that “Ha.Ni game yang saya slalu nampak dalam komik everytime ada japanese festival”.I was like “Owhh”.hehe.Its a fish game.I dunno what it called in Japanese.U are supposed to catch as many fish as u can with a scoop yang telah dimodify.Hehe.Bayangkan mak2 gune penapis kecik nak tapis ape2 la kan,tapi penapis tue telah dipotong bahagian tapisan tue dan bahagian yang dipotong itu dicover dengan tissue.Boleh bayangkan x? Macam budak kat bawah ni.U are supposed to catch those cute little gold fish with that.Jadi haruslah menangkapnya dengan lemah lembut.Sebab lapisan tissue kan sangat soft.Kalau berlubang dah xboley la tangkap ikan2 itu and u can take home all the fishes that u caught.

 

Saya telah berjaya membuat lubang pada cubaan pertama saya.Haha.Usyuk was really good at it.She managed to tangkap beberapa ikan yang sehat dan gemok.Huhuhu.Ini menunjukkan betapa tidak lembutnya saya.Oleh sebab tidak mahu kalah kepada dia,tau tak apa yang saya buat? Saya menangkap ikan2 yang sudah nyawa2 ikan.Haha.Sebab ikan2 itu kurang melakukan pergerakan dan jaring saya pun x berlobang la.Hehe.Usyuk xtau pasal itu.Kejadian iu diketahui selepas balik.Bila dia belek2 je dia kata “Awak, ade ikan yang dah nak mati la”.Harhar.Itu lah angkara saya.hehehe.

Jadi dengan rasminya kami mempunyai pet baru.Ikan2 yang comel.Hee.Sukidesh!

 

Betrayal

Last night my friend msg me telling me that she finally broke up with her gf.Finally.Actually this is her story.She and her gf is in this long distance relationship kinda thing.So, they cant meet that often.Sebab masing2 pun still studying and stuff.So ok lar.Thats normal.She often tell me her problem and stuff so i kinda know whats happening with their relationship.

Its going on fine till her gf decided to meet a friend that she just knew.My friend ni jenis yang kind of xkesah and cool with that.So the stories goes like this.Her gf betrayed her.She haf feelings for that gurl but still want to keep her old gf.Dan dia meminta kebenaran memiliki 2 gf’s.Bley? Kes ini memang lah selalu terjadi tapi without the gurl knowing.

Tapi itu bukan masalahnya.My friend yang dibetrayed still want to go on with her gf eventhou she know her partner is seeing another girl and her partner refuse to let go the other gurl.Bermadu la kiranya.She said she believes that her partner will regret everything that she hd done and goes back to her.Sampai sekarang pun masih macam itu.She said she love her partner and will wait for her.

Soalannya, jika anda, adakah anda akan menunggu seseorang yang anda sayang setelah dibetrayed dan masih lagi menjalankan aktiviti itu? Eventhou how much and big ur love? I asked my budak usyuk once and she said she will do the same thing like what my friend did and fight back for me.But if u ask me honestly, what the use of fighthing back the people we love but we know that they want to share their love with other people? That doesnt make sense eventhou i love her so much.

^_^

Phewww.Finally got time to rest and blog.Lots of things i want to write but i really dont haf time to sneak out or wateva to CC.Hey,This sem i got the same room with my budak usyuk.This is the first time i got to share the same room wit her.^_^

Everything in college is not going that well.Need to get used to the big campus, with the small amount of water dekat hostel.Hoho.The water part is tough.Saya ini pula adalah jenis yang bangun last2 menet.Jadi kalau lambat skit memang akn lambat ke class.But its getting ok day by day.

Sepanjang 5 sem yang lalu ive been sharing room with a friend of mine.Bayangkan duduk dengan dia for like 2 and a half years.A friend of mine ni jenis yang buat dasar berkecuali.So its easy with her cus i got to do my own things and so does her.Jadi i just do my own things je lar.Bila buat semua benda sendiri saya ni dah la yang sangat x terurus.Kalau tengok locker saya tue mmg susah la tgk baju yang terlipat.Kalau ade pun kejap je.Heh.Course saya pula melibatkan banyak drawings.Jadi faham2 sajalah drawings yang besar2 tue kalau x tersusun, memang serabut la.Roomate saya pula adalah sebaliknya.Memang organize la orangnya.Its kinda weird that we got along just fine.

Jadi apa yang saya ingin ceritakan ialah bagaimana kehidupan sy yang x terurus ni tinggal bersama budak usyuk sy.Kalau tengok memang x ubah mcm mak2 yang jaga anak tu, dari saya yang memang susah nak bangun ni sampai malam.Dia lar yang gantung baju2 saya yang bersepah.jaga makan minum sy.yang memaksa saya pergi kelas.Oh yer.One of my attitude yang sangat xbaik ialah saya cepat busan di kelas.Membebel kejap je sy akan mula membuat muka tidak puas hati.I just find this so sweet is apabila apabila saya sibuk bersiap2 ke kelas yang x sama dengan usyuk, dia akan mengambil segenggam gula2nya dan memasukkannya ke dalam beg class sy.Everytime she will do that for me.Because she know i will skip that class tido di surau ke atau simply lepak tempat like cus i hate that class.
Duduk dengan dia juga saya rasa makan dan minum saya lebih terjaga.Sebab stock makanan budak ni memang banyak.Saya ni plak jenis yang xkesah kalau xde makanan x makan,kalau ade makan jugak.Hehehe.Jadi sy perlu mengawasi berat badan saya selama saya tinggal bersama budak usyuk.hahaha

But everything is ok when im with her cus she is my guardian angel.

Fear

Fear
-By Mudvayne

Mr P,
You have that funny little accidy taste in back your throat
*glugg*
Like that?
*uhhuh*
Can you taste it? Do you know what that is?
*uh uh*
Fear

Fear is an emotion inside us
Deeper growing my deaths content
Eating away our insides
Watching themselves and they step out of skin

So darkness it surrounds the being
Memories ressurected of pain
Remembered what
Were reminded then
Of a the fear thats inside us and we’ll give in today

Fear
Fuck you
Fear
It’s inside you

Why am I here? Because you invited me
I can’t help for your insecurity
You can’t hide it from me ’cause I’m inside of you
I took it from you because your a freak show

I mend my soul without reason
Patiently concience restrained
My life feels so nice
It seems my darkness disguised entity
Shrouded in lifetimes of misery
Turned and it swells in my fate
Repeated what?
Disregarded then
Of the visions in my mind reflected mistake

Fear
Fuck you
Fear
Its inside you

Why am I here? Because you invited me
I can’t help for your insecurity
You can’t hide it from me cause I’m inside of you
I took it from you because your a freak show

Why?

Hostile manner that’s my fear
Sets back in my body goodnight
Relayed needles
Now floating feeling with soul striped from rine
Wrapping dead bodies accending
Vision restored to my eyes
Confidence, what?
Through defiance, why?
I’ve just now lifted from dead soiled time

Fear
Fuck you
Fear
Im inside you
My hand upon you
Your life gets a clue I’m finished

Why am I here? Because you invited me
I can’t help for your insecurity
You can’t hide it from me cause I’m inside of you
I took it from you because your a freak show

Fear, it’s violent
Sleeping inside me
Cry out just can’t sickness inside me
Sickness full of weakness in motion
Please let me free now get out of me!

Weird

My mom is freaking me nowadays.Because she often asked me weird questions and ask me to do weird things now.Adess.Im not sure weather she dah sense me ke x.Cus shes ok with my appearance dari dulu.She said asalkan im comfortable with what im wearing dia xkesah.But im 100% sure that she dunno that im senget.Thats for sure.

Last week kot, she asked me to start wearing lipstick?? Wtf? She said ok,lipstick is to much 4 me for now.So she said i can start wit lip gloss.Im like ” Maakk?? Why suddenly ney?”.Dia kata ye lar im still a girl thou.Well yeah, i know im still a girl but lipstick s not neccessary for me.Pastu mula la dia membebel.Blalallal.Layan kan je la.Then i tot that it will just end that day.
Pastu she called when i was sleeping jus now, dah la dengan blur2 angkat phone.Dia dah understand la if im sleeping,cakap banyak mane pun aku malas layan.So, she asked to speak to my sister instead.Jadik aku pun pas phone.Ok, eventhou im sleeping masa tu i can hear what their talking about.I can smell sumthing fishy.And its totally about me.
And yeah.guess what?.My sister said my mom ask me to find boyfriend masa i ade kat campus baru next semester.Im like “Whatt!??” again.Cus im goin to change campus next semester.She said “Alar special boyfriend saja2 je,bukan yang sampai kahwin tu.”.Ok pastue im like so confuse adakah dia menonton citer 360 smalam?? Cus dari dulu dia xde pun nak tanya pasal bf2 ney.Cus my bf ley kira dengan tangan je.Memang dari dulu dia dah tau benda tu.My sister said mak is serious about it and stuff.Im like buat muke annoying terus tutup muke dengan bantal!
Pastu boleh dia kata, mak x kisah sape2 pun,tapi kalau boleh melayu lar, kalau lain religion nanti susah, sebab dia kata aku pun terkemut-kemut lagi nak ajar orang lain plak.To that extend diaorg discuss tadi?? Adoi.Rasa macam masuk citer Twilight Zone pun ada.Tetiba masuk satu dunia yang pelik.Hahahaha.

Smalam masa ade rencana tue i was at my friend house.Lepak there cus kale kat rumah aku, kakak aku yang conquer TV.Kang pelik plak dia tengok aku melihat cerita2 sebegini.So, both of our parents memang suke tengok TV3,tapi takkan nak call and say, “Mak tengok channel lain ye hari ni selain TV3,ye? ye?” hahahah.Takkan kot.Jadik aku dengan dia kata, kita tengok parents sape yang bising dulu pas tengok citer tue.hahahahaha.Jadik nampaknya aku kalah ditangan beliau.Adesss.Redha je lar.Layannn…Zassssss.heh

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Oh ye.Today result kuar.heh.Well yeah Alhamdullilah.We both got good results for this sem.Yerp.and we will be celebrating tomorrow and yeah.im gona spent the wiken at budak usyuk’s house.Wuhhuuuu! ^_~

Nite2