i cant understand some people. they want us to be there when they need us, to talk,toconsole,to calm,share problems and try to solve them.But when we re in trouble they jus gave the same old lame excuses saying that they ll make u worst, not good 4 us and even worst, maybe we shouldnt contact 4awhile?.Whats with that?? Gosh. Expect us to be the heartless people and be the emosional and sensitive one, towards them?? aper ni? thats so unfair.so not unfair.After all the efforts? Deal with it.Im not u and u r not me.We are different.Dont expect me to be angry and mad they way u get mad.So, please try or i will be the heartless one 2 you.Really..This is repeating for quite sometime and i cant find the rationale of it.

Motif dah lama x blog tetibe marah2? Tak ada. T_T

Hey budak dah legal.Happy 21th birthday baby!

Jangan nakal2 ha and dont request for wine no more ha! aiyoyo O_o

Hey~ Hey~

Me and cik bewak ader satu habit baru2 ini.Kitaorg suker berlakon.Sebab itu awi cik bewak tanya “Macam mana kalau saya ganas, awak ske x saya lagi?”.Saya macam “Ha? Ganas macam mana?”.

“Ganas2 macam awk lar, awak nak kapel dgn saya lagi x?”

“Nape? Awak nak jadi ganas2 ea?”

“Hehehe.kalau la..” <–Ini saya tau dia main2 saja.Suke tanya soalan pelik2.

“Ok.cube awak buat ganas2″

Jadi mulalah sesi lakonan.Dia mula mengeluarkan suara dalamnya.Jalan ganas2 sket.And act macam ganas2 and macho2 sket.She really make me laughed masa mula2 dia blakon.Macam chumil2 je sebab cik bewak ni sangat lembut, tapi dengan saya aje, kalo dengan orang lain, dia mmg macam ala2 garang dan ganas.Kalo dia marah orang lain tue memang saya sendiri kecut perut.Memang gila extreme.Hehehe.Tapi thats the reason why i want to get know her mula2.Cus i always attracted to sumone yang mysterious and quiet.Cik bewak ini memang sangat pendiam terhadap orang2 yang x rapat dengan dia.Mula2 kenal pun kadang2 bila mau start a conversation pun macam xtaw macam mana.Tapi mungkin disebabkan saya seperti cartoon, saya berjaya membuatkan dia bercakap dengan saya lebey banyak kot berbanding orang lain.Tidak sia2 saya menjadi cartoon.HErher

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Its gonna be cik bewak’s birthday tomorrow! ^_^.Shes gonna be 21 years old.Legal dah katanya.Ehem2.=P~ Cik bewak mau kitaorg buat kek sama2.Dengan confidentnya saya kata saya boley buat sendiri, suruh dia duduk je depan tv tunggu siap.Namun apabila kata2 itu dikeluarkan oleh seorang yang ‘tangan bangku’ seperti saya,tentulah lar dibangkang mentah2 oleh cik bewak.Harhar.Ada jugak dapur yang terbakar nanti.Jadi dia akan menjadi pemerhati saya,bley? Pemerhati je taw wak? Xley lebey2.Kali ini saya yang buat.Note: Saya xpernah membuat kek mahupun memasak sebarang masakan melainkan megi, sup dalam paket dan makanan2 segera yang lain.

Dah la xpernah buat kek, ada hati pulak kata nak buat icing corak2 kat kek cik bewak.Herher.Confident ajer.Risau dah cik bewak kat rumah.harharhar.

I want to do something different this time.

*tengah tekun membuat research bagaimana membuat cake chocolate.

hey2.Emm.Dari segi emosional dan mental saya rasa sangat tidak stabil beberapa minggu ini.Everything i did was a failure to me n everyone.eventhou ive tried hard to make it ok, everything turns out to be a disaster.betul2 menguji kesabaran saya.Giving up? Itu saya sudah rasa banyak kali suda, cus sometimes i think it was a waste of time trying so damn hard but the outcome masih teruk juga.Tapi kerana masih ada pertimbangan dan rationaliti, im still here trying.Mungkin kerana azam saya tinggi tahun ini and i cant give up kerana ini baru awal tahun.But maybe i shud lower down my expectation.Sape setuju?

Saya selalu beritahu cik busyuk, awak harus ati kering pada masa dan tempat yang sepatutnya.Ignore benda2 yang x mberi ape2 keuntungan kepada dia.I wish i can do what i said to her.Ati kering.Damn, seriously, semua orang yang kenal saya kata saya ati kering, relaks je kale ada problem, but to be honest, its jus a cover-up.They dont know how scared i am dan betapa x stabilnye saya.I may look cool outside, tapi dalam minda semua pun fikir.Everything.From the little2 things.I cant control it.Mungkin kerana usia semakin meningkat, semua pun perlu mula berfikir and the fact that my mom is expecting something good and high from me make me so afraid of letting her down.She tot im the one who can help my family in the future since my older sister pun macam cukup2 jer for her family.Shes thinking of retiring after i finished my degree.Fikir tentang itu pun dah sangat takowt.I wan to give everything i can but i m not sure i can do that.Maybe not as much as she think i can.

But i know i haf to be strong for everybody.For her jgk, but i know shes much more stronger than i am.Betul, nampak jer lembowt, tapi saya boley merasakan kekuatannya.Hehehe.So dun worry kiddo, i know u ll do just fine.=)

No one- Alicia Keys 

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don’t worry ‘cuz
Everything’s going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything’s going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain
You and me together

Through the days and nights
I don’t worry ‘cuz
Everything’s going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything’s going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So til the end of time I’m telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for yo

Hmm, betul kata org, Proton cars agak xtahan, selalu je ada masalah.Ive been using Perodua car for like 3 years, takde masalah sangat pun,dah la kereta tue since 1997, kuat jer.Ni baru gune keta proton 2 bulan, dah macam2,brake suda berbunyi, dashboard pun suda bunyi.abis la saya mau service n maintain menda2 ni saja sudah banyak mau dikeluarkan

Dang.I’m supposed to find information about precedent study for my presentation.Unfortunately, xde building yang suitable.~_~

I just got my site for my project this sem and its in Bali.Dekat Ubud.Its a paddy rice field.Macam ini

And im supposed to design an exclusive apartment that cant be higher than a coconut tree on the slopes.Because the regulations there, building cant be higher than a coconut tree.Ini paling tough pernah saya dapat.I ll be cracking my mind for this, but interesting.And im going to Bali for a week, after Chinese New for site analysis.Its gona be fun and interesting.Looking forward for this.Tapi kalau pegi bersama cik usyuk boley honeymoon trus.^_^ Tapi malangnya dia tidak sama class dengan dia.Oleh sebab itu saya mesti membeli gifts yang banyak kepadanya.hehherher.Kan?

Berusahalah! memberi motivation kepada diri sendiri  -_-

Hey2

Been so bz lately with assignment n stuff and sangat xde masa nak buat ape2.Even spending time with cik usyuk.Sian dia.Walaupun kiataorg same bilik tapi macam sangat jauh cus im not in the same studio with her, so if saya ader,dia xder.This past week kene stay up till 5 a.m kat studio, balik2 je tengok dia dah tidur.Jadi agaknya dia rasa sangat terabai, dia selalu kata ” Saya x stabil la” Faham lar saya dia mau sedikit attention drpd saya.=) Jadi pas submission je menebus balik masa saya bersama dia.Dah stabil katanya =).Nway the project process was so like tiring and stuff.Itu yang susah kalo dah di aim oleh lecturer.Sangat susah mau impress dia balik.Hey but im thankful pas balik berpenat lelah je, looking at her face je make me fresh again.She will be there with smiles on her face, calming and taking care of me.=)

Hmm.actually i never tot that i m the type yang macam sangat kisah akan kerja.Really.I tot i was the cool and ‘dek’ type yang agak x kesah if the work was done properly ke x.Rupanya i turned out to be kind of a workaholic.I realized it when im with her.Sebab itu dia selalu x stabil when i haf a lot of work.Cus i tend to so concentrate on it that i really dont want any distruption.Pathetic.I tot i was cool but im not.Hahaha.She turned out to be the one yang relaks dan cool sampai kadang2 saya risau and i haf to kerahkan dia.Herher.Weird.

Last week i accidently scratched someone car semasa parking kereta.This is the first accident setelah beberapa tahun membawa keter and guess what masa itu her father was in the car.Aiyo.Itu la dia darah gemuruh namanya.Trying so hard to control and impress him , inilah padahnya.Harhar.Its not that bad lar cus that person car punya paint yang terkeluar banyak, mine macam sikit jer.But heartache jugaklar sebab keter saya langgar itu memang suda buruk,harhar,so i wouldn’t make much different to him or her.Harhar.Kejam.Kepada cik/puan/tuan/tan sri/toh puan  minta maap yer, saya sangat gementar kerana bapanya berada di dalam kereta.herherehr

Aiyak.mentang2 cuti sem tiap2 hari pun memblog.Herher.Layan.

It’s going to be December soon.Cepat je masa berlalu.Kan? Then suddenly I remember, masuk bulan depan it’s gonna be our second year anniversary.X sedar pun cus when im with her, I feel like time flies so fast.I dunno where would it lead us but as long as we are together I ll be ok.=)

Kalau mau tau cik biawak and I, we totally have different taste.And I mean huge differences.To the extend that boleh tahu dia suka atau tak.Because if I like that style, she woudn’t.So if she likes it, I woudn’t.Seriously, tapi ada la jugak some yang saya dan dia suka sama2, but ley kira dengan jari la.The differences is like everything la including food,clothes,style and everything else lar.

Kalau dari segi food is like totally different.She LIKES fast-food so very much.so VERY much.I never met someone that is so happy if dapat fast-food.Herher.She likes fried food.Everything that is fried cus she just loves the crunchiness of the food.Kalau dapat pisang goreng yang banyak kerak itu, muka dia menjadi tersangatlah bahagia.Hoho.In my case plak, I like soupy and non-fried food.Cik biawak selalu kata saya suke makanan orang sakit.Dia kata kalau saya ni letak kat hospital mesti bahagia sebab banyak makanan orang sakit.Bley x? =p.Tapi betul, I prefer that kind of food.Kaler makan Kentucky, cik biawak akan abiskan kerak2 ayam itu, isi2 bawah nanti kasik saya makan.Kalau telur masin dia suke yang putih, yang kuning telur tue kasik saya sbb saya ske yang itu.But its like fun cus I got to finished her food yang dia x makan and she got to finished my food yang saya x makan.Oh ye, I hate vegetables, dia la tukang makan sayur saya.

Style part plak, she likes something yang macam classical macam mid-evil itu.X kesah la furniture ke, barang ke.She just loved that kind of style.Her shoes, her clothes.Saya plak I like something modern and simple.Our sense is like totally different.Pernah itu hari, browsed one furniture magazine, she said she want this type of furniture, sambil tunjuk furniture like dalam castle itu.If neone yang slalu lalu jln Maarof tue akan perasan satu kedai classic furniture itu.Herher.Saya buat muke terkejut dan kaget “Haa?”.Pastue saya tunjuk plak furniture that I wud like,this so modern and cool design yang ala2 retro skit kat dia.Dia plak buat muka.She said it looks like so plastic and fake.=(.Herher.So we decided to have both styles in our house nanti.Ngeee..

But the differences that makes us wanting to learn more about each other.Kalau semua pun same macam xde thrill nak pilih benda untuk dia,knowing that she wud like it,plus we can learn to except and explore about our partner.Susah taw saya mau beli barang untuk dia.Kene selidik dulu, tanya ni tanya tue in order to know what she really likes tanpa mengantoikan diri.Herher..

Yuhuuuu.Good evening.Greetings.Herher

Plan malam ini mau bergayut bersama cik biawak saya kerana minggu ini saya berada 500Km jauh dari cik biawak.Tapi plan tersebut x menjadi memandangkan dia suda tidur keletihan sejak petang tadi, baru balik dari buat outdoor activities bersama familynya.Jadi malam ini, saya hanya bercakap dengan kucing gemok saya.Agaknya busan dengar saya membebel kucing gemok itu membuat keputusan untuk tidur.Herher.

Ingat ini hari mau cerita ke’phobia’an saya terhadap lembu pada waktu malam.Tapi cerita pasal tandas awam macam lagi best.

Hoho.I bet this problem banyak berlaku dikalangan mereka yang seperti saya.Seperti saya? Kalau sedikit keliru sile bertanya.Herher.Masalah masuk tandas awam ketika dulu memang tinggi.Cus I look more boyish that time berbanding sekarang.Hoho.Bukan maksudnya sekarang suda feminine.Huarhuar..Cet.

Saya akan mengelak sebanyak mana yg mungkin untuk masuk public toilet.Cus I dun want orang lain susah2 keluar balik tandas semata2 nak check sign toilet weather its female or male.Hehehe.But i never experienced girls accidentally tershout like my friend did.Haha.The worst was lepas saya bayar, saya pun dengan confidentnya la nak masuk toilet, tetiba aci tempat bayar tue tarik tangan saya “Aiyo, x nampak ka toilet laki sebelah sana?” Katanya sambil muka muka toya.Adesss.Macam mana mau terang sama dia pun saya x tahu.Tapi agaknya dia macam terperasan kot sebab seperti biasa la pandangnya telah beralih kebawah lalu melepaskan tangan saya.”Aiyo,sorry2..”.Heh.Saya sengih jer.Tapi saya paling suke tengok muke awekx ini kaget dan terkedu tengok saya kuar toilet.Lawak syal.Harhar.

Tettttttt..!

Aiyark.busannya cik biawak xde.Suda lama tidak sakat tu budak